CNF Nothing

   Its been a really rough day. Im talking to you to put a smile on my face. You ask what im doing and i click reply. Do i just tell her how i am really sad and just sitting on the couch watching television? I click the keys that type out nothing and hit send.
   I write nothing to hide my feeling. To show no emotion or any signs of weakness. When i give off the impression that im doing nothing, i am embarresed of what im doing. i think most people say they are doing nothing when they are hurt because they are either not close with the person and they dont want to be known as the depressed and sad kid to people that dont know them. Another reason is they might not want to talk about it because talking about it only brings it up and keeps it in their mind. For them to feel better it needs to be out of their head and since talking about it only makes people think about it, it is better to not talk about it at all for some people. The thought will go away if you just reply nothing. We say nothing to people because it is easier. Its easier to just hide our feelings and not speak of them at all. It takes comfort and trust to talk about feelings with someone, but trust isnt an easy thing to have with someone either. So we are stuck with two difficult questions. One, Do we trust the person to not go spreading our feelings around? And two, Is it worth bring everything up to talk about the feelings you have when it is just as easy to say nothing and avoid the pitty im sorrys.
   My phone starts to buzz. Its a text from the person i replied nothing to. I scroll my finger over to click open. I read the text, " whats wrong". Crap! Was it obvious that something is wrong? Does everyone now know that if something is wrong they reply nothing? Do i reply nothing again and avoid everything? I type out what i want to say and i begin to watch my show again.